Patience

Having patience...

Something that I've never known
Always keep to myself, yet it's never here at my home

Falling to insanity while I'm out day dreaming
Walking throughout the town, lights gleaming
Headlights beaming brightly against my lenses

Meeting new people that I'll never see again
But will they remember me, if so... when?

Strolling alone... indulging in fantasy, shall I cease?
I'm writing this down while listening to classic rap beats

Gazing at the stars hopeful that one day, I may fill these boots
Not but myself in the park, like old men I look back to my roots

I work hard

In this world it takes much more than heart
I came up in the world from passing pain and book-smarts
Knowing exactly how I'd depart... Building a legacy and forever hoping to "Restart"

The mentality over energy with blissality

This was published April 12th 2011

Her energy flows inside of me

Grasping the light that's binding me

Alloting my purity

Enhancing darkness so blissfuly

Kissing my lips with pure ecstacy

She makes me feel... everything surrounding all around her

Stole my love the day we knew each other

I wached the blood soup out of her back... therefore then was sure

She loves pain, and i love her scars

Even whilst apart

I feel her renergy from afar.

We,d sit face to face my hands soft to her neck and her head against mine

Our energy flowing and mixing through our body and minds

Souls in sync, and love........ as hearty as tar, thick and rich

As i raise the bar, ear to chest listening whle oxygen pumping within our veins

Such sweet art.

We kiss... gently...overpowering emotions eternally spark

Notions swimming vigerously around upon our stomachs, beautiful sharks

Body's touch, breathing hard...

Hormones rush, substancial lust

Hands wondering over, on and about us

HER: We rolled on with certain...

comfort.

A certain laughter,

and spiel on with ease.

I met you while i was humble,

and so our demeanor was such a tease.

And with you a certain pleasure...

arose in conversations.

And the fights that we once have had

then

weren't much to a lifetime or a friendship

So although i may be guilty

the one to let it slip

you weren't in my shoes,

Our life was a blunder

Tripping over glances,

and stares to those afar.

I've missed when you saw me,

while my heart was hearty; like tar.

Where did we go my love?

Lost lusting something so?

Believed but i never seen,

Like a million bucks to my mind.

I can't remember when you loved me,

I can't find the time.

Like a hug or kiss...or miss

or bliss' a bliss that friendship

has how had!?

And i'm the one that's bad...

Guilty of corruption

of a friendship,

a bond.

never the same.

And still loving all of you... Now, forever and always... your love.

Bad or Bliss???

This was written April 12th 2011

My poems are questioned

My thoughts be critisized 

My writing is hated

My experience debated

Every ounce frustrated...

Toward my work is neglected

Society is the critisizer 

Complain of a liar

Dark is the only bite-er

Thyne main reader

Is your one and only vampire breader

Dance with the devil

On my every night carn-evil

a kiss on her navil

As she blesses me with a sweet-er

Than life energy o how i need her

See her... free her... and yes i am sure

That she is here beneath the fog i see such a blur

But as i still dance she engraves her love in my brain 

A torch, is what she use's
Cold to the touch; it burns and leaves nothing but

A puddle of blood... a love stain.

But a shame... We go our seporate ways... 

Never to be seen again...

Together no longer and forever to be in wonder...

Where you are and If you miss thee.

Can not ever wait as humans we are naturaly impatient... Without Glee

Infactuated by our own weakness, yet break every barrier between us.

Fate has one flaw and that is time.

The time in the hour glass

The time on your wall

Time in the wait for the time to die.

The times you lie if your're never on time

And the time you sit and wonder...

Ponder on the conversations we could have had

Skylab

This was published May 18th 2011

My perception is blinded,

By the way my life has un-winded..

Isolated from the world but percieve everything around me.

Beside me... the thoughts that i only wish to be seen.

My keen ability to observe details of another.

No other has lived a life so live so livid but so dark so frigid

An invalid, injection... inserted but rushed through my vain 

Flows through my blood feeling every ounce of it's pain

My cane, my crutch, my balance is tainted 

I've waited... years for the rush

The push, to crush my negativity

See every entity surrounding enhancing my creativity

Sublimity, and purity beauty is my security

She... some how see's my weakness 

Senseless as she controls my most agressive senses

Sweat drenches my cloths, wind cold to the touch

energy launched, as my thirst... never to be quenched

And such...  A gorgeous night

Though only for a second, back inside to re-create this wild ride.

Dancing and lights, the energy that surrounds us comes from the crowd.

Music can never be too loud or your concious proud.

End if the night you don't remember... Never to be known until september.

Skylab. 

G-alixy

This was published May 19th 2011

As i draw the blood from her vains, it poors into my hands,

Like the ocean to the sand creating one great band

Caressing the warmth, I let it flow

i see her trepidation grow, her eyes are a wonder

more and more as we cast a spell for her eternal love of death.

the cool wind passes with every deep breath

the sky darkens and the clouds they disapear.

every moment passes slower than the last, so unreal.

The final second comes, we are completely drenched her red wine.

making fractured images on the ground in perfect sequence

The traumatic heat of our energy mixed; scars the tree's that surround her and me 

everything stops, the only thing in my sight is she

silence fills the air like a posion enters every vain, such bliss

and she crosses into the abyss. 

her body descends soulless into my arms.

with more pleasure comes great harm

the energy swept out of my grasp.

i create one last "i love you" before i wake from my trance.

all is lost but so much gained.

her life. excruciatingly slain. I struggle to maintain sane.

yet a smile remains.

as i pray, may the goddess bless her soul
she collects it... obtained 

A blue rose

This was written May 19th 2011

A Blue Rose,

Concentration as the Aura glows

My mind as it wonders, the foe as it borrows

The attention of every inch of my perception

Dances and plays, it prays

For my spiritual connection

I lust for it's ultimate deception 

To crush, my heart, my soul but that's just the introduction

Now listen, as she pulls my skin by the strand

Ripping and tearing as if digging through the sand

My muscles as they tense

She tears them out like if there worth a grand

Although she seems to sense 

That i understood her from first glance

We walk into an eternal trance 

The devils chamber as she carries me

Spiritually through broken glass

Shards of salt cutting my vain's 

She restrains my every emotion

And under no contemplation 

We cry, May the goddess bless our souls 

For our eternal damnation 

So thus isolation

keeping from socialization 

She is my demise 

And i realize she is always on my mind, all days, and all times.

Your eyes

This was written Sept 17th 2012....
Why do we risk our lives for those who move hastily to take away even their own?
Why dost the sun set on the days we cherish most?
Why do I watch, stern faced as you stare at me...
Pain searing from your eyes, teeth clenched unable to pry?
You allow yet a whimper whilst streams shine from cheek to chin..
You beg for help, any emotional support at all from within.
Though at a whisper thine hands brush lightly though your hair
No, not pain nor agony... no words at all could conjure up the thought of how...
It feels as...
Your hear breaks slowly next to mine.